I think I'm living a fairytale. Everything that's happening, to me, to the world around me, to the people around me, it's beautiful. I've always felt that I was in a constant metamorphosis. My heart beat for a change. Now, the transition feels almost complete. I have many lives to live, many more people to become, many more kisses to give, but something in me tells me that I have found my self. I have found the desire. I have found the love. I have found the life in me.




I love my life. All the struggle, all the empty stars, all the broken days, they all shape me in ways, Happiness, and simpleton living do not. I realize, I am happiest after deep despair. After facing a sadness, after overcoming a pain, I become the happiest person on my planet. This optimism that's shining through me, has strayed before, but I'm trying to hold onto and keep it fed for as long as I can.

I want to keep my feelings. Even the bad ones. Life would be too long if I never felt the rhythm of sorrow, the triumph of a smile. Wouldn't you rather feel aching, than feel numb??




I think I can become something great. I haven't taken a slice of humble, or pride pie.. but my conscience has grown to believe I was made to be something. In ten years, I will not be sitting in an office, or driving in a car I hate, or coming home to an empty house. I will be stirring the pot of wealth. The pot of love, desire, satisfaction, the pot of dreams.






Sometimes the thoughts in me, flutter like butterflies, in the pit of my stomach, and leave me with a depth like an ocean. Sometimes, the thoughts in me, run dry like mother earth, and leave me simple. I think it works like this. When I want to be deep, when I want to really feel my existence, I can. I bring myself to a place of questioning, analyzing, thinking. When I want to feel simple, I close my eyes, and think about my day. It's hard to not feel depth, when the love of your life, thinks like the Atlantic ocean.... :)






The loves of my life. There are few. But my love for them grows. Those who have stood by my stride, and took my palm in aching weather. Those who have labored me, painted me, kissed my forehead when I was ill. Those who whispered sweet nothings, and loved me when I was unloving. This post is for you. Without your touch, your paint, your feeling, I'd be empty. I'd be alone in my head, forever. With you to guide me to my star, to fly me to my galaxy, to help me when I was helpless, I will never be lonely. I have my sky. I have my storm. I have my boat. I have my sea. The love I have for you is, immeasurable. I thank you. My life is for you.



Dear blog lovers, and readers, and sweethearts. Life is busy. And tiring. And lovely. I know last year at this time, I posted every second day. Lately, I find the clock running out of time for you, and it leaves me sad. I think about you constantly, and how the strings of my heart grow for you too. I want a guarantee, not a promise, to post for you every week. And with New Years resolutions, I am going to do just that. I am going to dress everyday. I am going to be here to thank you, and share sweet nothings. I will post until I annoy you. I will post until you grow tired of me. (Please don't grow tired of me...)


My love is beating for the world. My eyes are growing for this life. Kiss the sky.

XOXO

63 comments:

  1. Very well written, and a lovely outfit too. I hope you keep your promise and post more often.

    xx
    theotherchic.blogspot.com

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  2. you look beautiful in these pictures. your words are so inspiring and i admire your optimism. hold on to it and cherish it because you never know when it might leave you.
    thanks for putting a smile on my face. :)

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  3. Gorgeous darling girl. You're such a delightful blogger. I really love that bow in your hair. So sweet.

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  4. Loving the outfit! Think it's a bit too cold for it though

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  5. Love your post and the pics that go along with it....some words we all should live by.

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  6. OMG! Such an awesome post!!! I love it all!! Great outfit too!

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  7. love the ensemble, the post was amazing, I read the entire thing. you have a such a beautiful way with words and describing your emotions. I know it's really late, but I want to thank you for commenting on an old blog I had. I am officially following your blog now, and will probably have to play catch up (which is okay with me). Thanks again!

    Sarah Jane

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  8. I always love your posts. They make me think, for lack of better words. It's like I can have my cake and eat it too, cute clothes, inspiring words!

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  9. Good thoughts, I have to say.

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  10. Beautiful words, beautiful girl! I adore your blog. I'm glad to see you posting a bit more these days!

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  11. Please, keep on doing what your drives your passion. I've become way more into photography than I ever thought. I'm dying to take more and more photos. I give your the biggest hug if possible. You write so eloquently.

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  12. very beautifully written. :) i love reading your entries!! glad to be seeing more updates!

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  13. Your jacket is so cute!!

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  14. these pictures are so beautiful! :)

    xoxo

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  15. what a beautiful post! ur words are so inspiring:) i just love ur optimism. i also love these beautiful images that accompanied them. u look lovely and i look forward to more posts! i don't think i'll get annoyed if u post everyday:D

    TheOwlsCloset.blogspot.com

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  16. Wow. This is such a beautiful lovely post. These pictures are so pretty. At first I thought you were on a beach but then I realized it was snow. Great outfit too!! You have to know love & beauty & sadness to really feel life. I would rather feel the ache then the numbess. Wonderfully said.

    I hope you have a great day lady & Good luck with your resolution of posting. THanks for stopping by my blog too! Come back anytime! =)

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  17. oh my god , I'm cold for you. You make me cold with your little (really pretty) dress and shoes.
    Your pictures are so nice , and i'm happy for you . LOve and happiness are the best things in world.
    xoxo

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  18. Danielle ( daantje_jongeneel@hotmail.com )8.1.10

    Ýóu're so beautiful, everything about you is so great. Your clothes, and your story's!
    I loved to read it.. They're so true, and i wish you all the love of life, and it helps me with my english to, thank you, ;)

    Kisses, Danielle from Holland.

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  19. very inspiring words. so poetic.
    i love that you took the risk of pairing a long top over a boho skirt...and i adore the polka headband!

    gizellefaye.blogspot.com

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  20. that was beautiful, keep dreaming amy, i know youll reach your dreams.

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  21. So beautiful! Congratulations on the weardrobe.com awards!

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  22. this is so lovely!!++

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  23. so artistic and inspiring!!!

    im so happy i stumbled upon your chictopia and saw your blog!!! :D i miss your posts!!!

    http://animatedconfessions.blogspot.com

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  24. I love your bow in your hair, its so pretty! x

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  25. Wow, such lovely sentiments! I love these dreamy photos that accompany them and love the coloring! Cute outfit with the different layers too! xo, Mel

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  26. love ur hairs, great post!

    xxx

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  27. love the tank. I have it. Makes me miss summer

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  28. i really love the tint on these photos
    very beautiful
    great fun look, comfy and warm yet chic
    thanks for sharing as always
    i really love your blog, keep it up!

    -cma
    COSMICaroline.blogspot.com

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  29. So so cool! Love your positive attitude :]

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  30. I love how positive you are!! And I love these pics! I am a follower now!
    VISIT ME
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  31. Your outfit is great! It's kinda funny and stylish at the same time!

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  32. I've enjoyed your post and I have a big smile on my face.Sometimes it feels better just doing it for no reason.Just smile and you'll always see the life in a better way! :)
    xoxo,Oana

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  33. beautiful babygirl.
    i love your new bangs, they're real cute.

    v

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  34. pleasure reading your post- beautiful photographs

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  35. i really like your blog, and i love your style!!
    lot of love,
    neva.

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  36. hey again!
    sorry, we have a link exchange, im lottie from thepelicanand me? anyway just letting you know, i changed my blog name, now its - itsfashiondamnit.blogspot.com . so yeah- is it ok for you too change your links? thanks.
    lottie

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  37. the lighting of the photos are soo gorgeous! i love ur hair and tights :)

    natalieoffduty.blogspot.com

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  38. Great post and the pictures are so beautiful. You have such a cute blog xoxo

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  39. i really like your outfit. i envy you for being able to wear colors really well. ;) the tights are awesome and the layering is lovely.

    i also love the way you described things. you're such a good writer :)

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  40. Wow, great post! I'm so glad that you love your life!

    Peace and love!

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  41. Beautiful! Very open - it's brave to put yourself out there like that.

    http://www.thereformedtomboy.blogspot.com

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  42. It took me at least five photos down before I realized it was snow and not sand at the beach surrounding you...

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  43. I really like these photos!

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  44. I love this post! The pictures are so fun to look at, and your commentary is great too.:)

    meme-stylenewbie.blogspot.com

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  45. wow what a beautiful post, it´s been a pleasure to read what you wanted to say!

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  46. Hi, Amy!

    I'm a writer at ModCloth.com, and I just wanted to let you know that I'm using one of your older outfits as for my "Fashion Inspiration" post today! Love your blog. :)

    -Natalie B.

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  47. Hi Amy,
    Love your blog and would like to introduce you to mine called CHICHI and maybe use one of your great "looks" one day, if that's ok with you:)

    www.barboradudinska.blogspot.com
    "fashionably tasteful.have a bite"

    Thanks for taking a peek & hopefully following!
    B.

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  48. im flying im flying

    i feel the wind of that place where u took the pictures, and i feel the cold of the snow and at the same time the warm of the winter sun...

    i think i got your inspiration too

    :)

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  49. Girl youre soo cute!

    All love Ida

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  50. wonderful shots. really beautiful.

    - www.theclothingproject.com

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  51. I have so much dificulty deciding whether your writing or your style is more beautiful!

    "Life would be too long if I never felt the rhythm of sorrow" - this line really speaks to me.

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  52. you look gorgeous! really digging the how the colours of your pics turned out..

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  53. I thought that you looked really pretty in those clothes. I also love the scenery and you put all together really well

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  54. The coloring is so great in these photos! And i really love your hair...its such a hot "out of bed" look :)

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  55. so so in love with this look!

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  56. I've just discoverd your blog and I love it! You've a great style!

    If you want check out my blog and leave a comment! Thanks a lot!

    www.abitoffashion.com

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  57. Heya!
    Just kinda stumbled onto your blog, and i love it! You have such a lovely style, and these are such gorgeous photographs. must follow you :-)
    Panda xxx

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  58. great blog!

    http://thestylespotter.blogspot.com/

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  59. I do love the yellow world and the beautiful snow!

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  60. i always love reading your blog. especially this post is written so beautifully.

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  61. You're such a delightful blogger. I really love that bow in your hair. So sweet.

    my lingerie blog

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