Sunday, June 26

the fuzzy bear,



Hello western wind plucking at my tree leaves,        hello hot cocoa knocking at my door.
There's a plump bird sitting by the window.   There's a May tree bending in the Rain.        The rain is stuffing buckets, again.... You'd think I'd be used to the cloudburst by now. Instead, I'm caught woolgathering thoughts of toasters.   

The birds are calling for shelter, and I'm whimpering for summer.   These days of wet stuff, and dark lights, ruin all of my plans.  As the meadows turn soggy, and the tree branches sag, I am burdened by walls. Stuck inside, away from the picnics, away from the sun's blessing. 
 If July doesn't dry our bags of bones, I might just slap a goat.

Caught by cloud tailing~ no brain for counting dimes~ tried to be a banker~ but I was born for rhymes


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These photographs were taken on Friday,
Plans for a picnic were destroyed when the sky line turned dusty, and showers began to pour.  I could have become one with the sky, weeping at the ruined day, while soaking my feathers. 
 Instead,    I stretched milky teeth, and found myself smiling.      
We changed our plans, and kept our fates happy.

I blanket my belly~ with the tongue of the swain~ the buckets of love bring calm accord for my brain~

 A once promised open-air feast turned into Vietnamese chomping.    Fish sauce, fresh herbs, lemongrass juices, noodles, and steamed rice. All of the flavors beckoned my tongue.     As I sat by the window,  I peaked into the drenched atmosphere.  My tongue and belly were married by the deliciousness of food.  Suddenly, I realized something, something I hadn't realized before.  Food is more than flavor, color, or fuel.  Food is the magic seed planted by our teeth. Where food is planted,  love grows.

Too often,  where love should have been, I have loathed.  I have tricked myself into believing food is where fatness forms.  At one point in my life, I barely swallowed food.  I was afraid of losing bones, and growing skin on my belly.   I counted my calories.  I pinched my hips. I wasted shooting stars. I ignored the grumbles. I allowed myself to grow bare, and bony.  As my ribs began to poke through my chest,  I still saw the weight of my thighs. I don't know what overcame me, I don't know how my mirror started drawing make-believe.  Fortunately, I reclaimed my taste buds, grew back my skin, and became healthy again. Sadly, I continued to frown at the frame in the mirror.

spend the night beside her• bridle her pleasant whispers• take her dreaming hand• lead her rags to the richest waters.






As I sit here, snacking on marshmallows, carrying the weight of the poor weather,   I find myself turning a new leaf...   Food is here to be loved.        One day, I'll rock upon a porch with frail bones, and blind sight. Will it matter if I lived my life thin as the celery stalk? Or plump as the fuzzy bear?     All that will matter is the tastes of the treasure,  the marriage of flavor, and those who snacked with me.   I do not want rails for legs. I do not want to hear my belly sing.   I will start seeing my rosy-skinned cheeks for what they are.  

spend the night beside her• bridle her pleasant whispers• take her dreaming hand• lead her rags to the richest waters.


Thank you for reading.
Sweet kisses !!!!


what i wore
fur- value village $15
dress- birthday gift from local boutique
shoes- H&M wedges thrifted $15



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71 comments:

  1. Anonymous26.6.11

    The post really spoke to my heart. You use words and communicate the deepest, most profound things. I really am happy to have found your blog through twitter- You are my source of inspiration.

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  2. The jacket is so decadent! Adore it. You are so darling and your writing is magical.

    ♥, Jamie
    www.TheFancyTeacup.com

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  3. That jacket is beautiful! It was a bargain too!

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  4. I love your dress!
    x

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  5. Your jacket is truly amazing! I love the striped fabric, amazing!

    x
    www.lostinthehaze.com

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  6. I loove the outfit! The jacket is adorable 7 <3

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  7. Love it! Your post is so lovely, plus really digging the floral feel. I like that you like to try different kinds of food! Banh mi and pho are very good, and but I prefer the "rice vermicelli" served cold. It's like a Vietnamese salad - I often go eat that too! : )

    - Crystal (from Facebook!)
    @watermoolen

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  8. totally adorbs! Now following you!

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  9. I love this post...not only your outfit but your way with words. Gorgeous coat and wedges.

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  10. superbly she looked and spoke the words of her heart.

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  11. I'm glad you're coming to such a good conclusion about yourself and your body and how you want to live your life :)

    That's such a cute outfit. Too bad the weather isn't nicer! I'll be out in Alberta in two weeks for festival Motion Notion and I'm so worried we'll be caught in storms again.

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  12. First off you are stunning!! I can not believe you got that amazing jacket for $15!! WOWOWOWOW!!! Great great find! And your shoes were thrifted? I need to go shopping with you

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  13. beautiful combination!! Love your coat


    -jana
    http://www.wolfandwillow.com/

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  14. Anonymous26.6.11

    You have a beautiful body. I wish my body was as nice-looking as yours. Also, you could get fat and you'd still have your pretty face and your soul. You have a soul unlike any other. You are SO wise beyond your years, I can't believe your only 18

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  15. Anonymous26.6.11

    ^from ana by the way!

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  16. That fur jacket is so fun and unexpected with the patchwork print dress. Amazing shoes too! What a great thrift find

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  17. the fur jacket is so trendy !

    lovely shoe .
    come for a visit to my blog , you'll find a stunning GIVEAWAY ...of course I'll do back

    ciao ave

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  18. You write so beautifully! That is one talent I wish I could possess :) This look is absolutely gorgeous! So fun and chic :) And thank you for your sweet comment!!

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  19. cute photos...love the second one! we haven't been having much of a summer either...rainy, rainy!

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  20. i love your outfit!! your dress and jacket are amazing!! and beautiful photos <3

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  21. that dress is so lovely!great colors!

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  22. fantastic style!
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    xx
    annette

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  23. You are adorable and I am loving all your affordable fashion finds...super cute! Sorry the weather spoiled your picnic plans! Your writing is wonderful and so great to read and what open, honest words too! It is so true to think about what really matters in the end and I bet leaning more towards the fuzzy bear side will be more tasteful and enjoyable! :) So glad I stumbled upon your lovely blog!

    Liesl :)

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  24. adorable outfit and pics, loving the fur

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  25. I love how this post ended... food is definitely something to be loved and you are so right... at the end of this life being skinny will pale in comparison to just enjoying your life and living it to the fullest.
    I'm so happy you stopped by as it led me to discover your blog... its so whimsical and I love your way of writing.
    xo
    salina

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  26. crazy and beautiful bear...ciao

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  27. oh, these rhymes are amazing :) you've got great writers talent! I wanted to say thank you for your sweet and encouraging comment :) and for following my blog ofcourse. I could have sworn I already followed yours after I saw it on Teeka's blog, but it turns out blogger was malfunctioning again. So, now I do ^^ x

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  28. You are a very articulate writer. I love your style and voice. But, mostly, I love your message.

    I've been in a dark place with food, too . . . and although (as you probably can relate) it's sometimes triggering to read, it is definitely a source of light to hear someone else's story.

    And girl, your outfit is slammin.

    Thanks for the cute comment!

    ~Chelsea

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  29. I adore the fur jacket <3

    Follow me, if you still aren't ;)
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    Have a fashionable day! <3
    XOXO
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  30. I love your hair, your clothes, and your poetry. So much inspiration from one little lady!

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  31. you look gorgeous as usual! i really love the second photo of you in this post! hehe you look really pretty and natural having some fun.

    Hayley xxx

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  32. you look gorgeous as usual! i really love the second photo of you in this post! hehe you look really pretty and natural having some fun.

    Hayley xxx

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  33. You look beautiful, like your style!

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  34. Beautiful post and really beautiful outfit. Your shoes are awesome.

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  35. I hope the weather perks up for you but it seems like you are making the best of it. Have you ever heard of Lera Lynn? I think you might like her tunes.

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  36. Love your shoes :D

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  37. Anonymous27.6.11

    The first poem is really special
    You are a nice looking girl. More than nice looking. You are perfect, and I enjoying sharing your words. You bless those whom you walk by. Beauty and brains- not common these days, especially through blogs.

    Twitter friend.

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  38. Anonymous27.6.11

    That twitter friend is Michael by the way. Cheers!

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  39. you are absolutely gorgeous and i love the outfit! thanks for the blog lovin'!
    Xo

    http://ericplustanya.blogspot.com

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  40. just found your blog :)

    loving that fur coat !!!

    new follower....hope you follow me too !!

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  41. that dress is super fun. and those shoes! love em. your writing style is extremely unique! thanks for stopping by my blog!
    kristen
    www.summersetsin.blogspot.com

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  42. love love love the jacket :)

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  43. I absolutely adore your style, you are so effortlessly chic! Gorgeous coat and dress!!! Great blog, darling! I am now following! Maybe you'll have time to visit my blog:)

    Kisses,
    Annabelle
    http://vivaluxury.blogspot.com

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  44. ow soo cute!! Love the furry jacket...can't believe you can still wear one in the middle of summer! Lucky you:)

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  45. Anonymous28.6.11

    Yes everything here is so pretty. The words even!!!!! SO MUCH magic

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  46. Anonymous28.6.11

    Is it real Fur, It was so inexpensive. How do you manage to find such goodness while Thrifting? Truly inspirational, and you make me jealous because you are pretty and stylish.

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  47. You're stunning! Love this outfit, that coat is incredible x

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  48. loveit!!!!!!:)xx

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  49. I pinch my belly and throw sticks at the mirror. I need to stop.

    I adore you, sweet girl.

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  50. I love that jacket, it's irresistible, i always look for this style but i can't find, if you want to tell us where do you buy these gorgeous outfits it would be appreciated.

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  51. love your outfit!! your jacket is amazing! cute blog!

    xoxo
    b

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  52. coolest jacket ever. even cooler when you get it for 15$ !

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  53. Gorgeous outfit!
    I love your fur jacket :)
    cute blog!
    xoxo
    Olivia

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  54. I love your outfit, especially the dress and the shoes, absolutely adorable. And adding a fur coat seems like the perfect add on on a cold day.

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  55. ahhh this is adorable! i loooooove your jacket :)

    xx, theemeraldsun.blogspot.com

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  56. you're quite poetic, i must admit.

    thanks for stopping by and the congrats,

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  57. Love your outfit, the jacket is amazing and only $15!
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  58. Love your faux fur jaquet

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  59. Your coat is amazing I want! its so hot in here too much heat <3

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  60. Nice nice .. J'adore the combination with that amazing fur vest!

    Really oh x

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  61. Loving the vest!!!!!!!!!!

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  62. ah wow, i love your hair, and you have such a sixties face. love this coat too! great shots. xx. www.whothefuckismickjagger.blogspot.com

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  63. Love the fur! Thanks for your comment. :)

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