Saturday, November 15

The rose petal dress

I am a winter born girl who is desperate for warmth in the floorboards. I cannot live a life where I wander purposely, always searching for where the sunshine grows, nor can I live a life chasing darkness just to call myself a better poet. I am not only happy, I am not only sad. I am both of these feelings in the same day. Sometimes, and only sometimes, sadness will consume me and render me its student. This is how I felt before writing my last blog post. I was sad and no amount of music or birdwatching could wake me from the sour taste of wanting to feel better and not knowing how.

I moped to my mother. I put blame on my lover. I crept and cried while the hands on the clock moved slowly. I wondered if the feeling would lift the same way forgiveness keeps a friendship or clouds part after a rainstorm. I knew in my heart, time would be kind to me. I would return to my body and reconnect my head with my soul. I would once again be the winter born girl who had songs of summertime in her bones.

Today as I write to you, I feel like happiness is here, between the belly and the bone. I sat on the floor of a book store and I heard children laughing. I looked out of my kitchen window at midnight and saw a wild rabbit chasing the moon. I tasted raspberry jam on toast in the early hours. These are the tiny moments in a day that make me believe happiness is here. Sometimes, and only sometimes, sadness will consume and render me its student, but then time comes to pass and I begin to see things a little more brightly than I ever did before. If you can't let sadness help you grow, what on earth is it for?

The Outfit
Dress Chicwish
White lace blouse – Value Village
Red Tights Joe Fresh
Banjo  Dogwood Banjos

The Location 
Ravine behind my house, Calgary Alberta Canada

13 comments:

  1. I absolutely love your dress! And I didn't know that you lived in Calgary, I live pretty close (in Edmonton). :)
    Amy xx

    catscraftsncritters.blogspot.ca

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  2. Nice pictures, nice words... Love your dress.
    Xx, Macarena

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  3. You are a vision, and your words are soothing.

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  4. The dress is so pretty :)

    http://japobsganbare.blogspot.com/

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  5. Stunning pictures and outfit inspo ! You look amazing! I love your boots!

    ♥XO♥

    Jeanne

    http://fashionmusingsdiary.com

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  6. Very pretty outfit, love the colors and the dress, stunning :)

    http://dreamland1234.blogspot.com/

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  7. You look so gorgeous. I absolutely love the lace top layered underneath this adorable dress. Such fantastic layering going on in this outfit.

    Jamie | PetitePanoply.com

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  8. I love to read your writings. Please never stop. On a related note, that lace top under a dress is genius. I love how you pop out of these photos.

    http://lamentinglizzie.blogspot.com

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  9. Anonymous17.11.14

    Your poetry makes me feel alive :D

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  10. I love what you wrote about sadness. Sometimes after being drowned in sadness, it makes your perspective on everything much brighter.

    Kaylyn Nicole

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  11. Looove how you have styled your dress with the lace shirt underneath. Love to read your words about sadness and happiness, raspberry jam makes a brighter day indeed! :)

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